I'll try to start keeping this posted regularly in case I have some sort of stalker or maybe give you all a little taste of whats happening to me in life right now.

Well lets see I just recently graduated H.S. in June 2009 so WOOT!! here comes real life I've got a $40k scholarship due to my years in JROTC I'll be attending OSU (Ohio State University. Got me a wonderful girl who I'm absolutely in love with a bit of money saved up, planning on having some fun before I go back to the states (oh I currently in in Germany) and everything seems like its going to be fine and dandy!

hey Jeff... Jeff... Wake up... WAKE UP HAHA FUCKER JUST JOKING YOU DONT HAVE ANY OF THOSE!!!

Shortly after I graduated (less then 24 hours) I got excessively drunk decided I was going to take one of my graduation presents (a very nice turkish knife from one of my co-workers) and scratch not 1 not 2 not 3 but 13 (THIRTEEN) cars. well I was arrested. my 40,000 dollar scholarship was taken away from me because they felt like they didnt want me representing the ROTC program if I was a vandal. My girl left me soon afterwards and is now attending OSU without me in her life at all she couldnt handle long distance with a criminal (yes I have to stay in germany until my little court hearing is over.) so no college no girl no money. and with no choice I'll be enlisting into the AIR FORCE got most of my paperwork out of the way and will leave around January I hope if this damn court business doesnt take too long UGGGGHHHH

isnt life fun kiddies?

Sitting dissatisfied
i am preoccupied again with talking to myself
but i feel like i might be someone else
as i reach out to you
my words will be the glue to hold
so i don't fall apart

but i feel like i want to lose control
lose control
lose control
lose control
but i know that when i do i lose my soul

i give myself some rope
to find a glint of hope
i fail; it's wrapped around my feet
and i feel my history repeat
with all the time i bide
i'm used to ways i'm tied inside
and pulling on my strings

but i feel like i want to lose control
lose control
lose control
lose control
but i know that when i do i lose my soul

i am preoccupied
with being satisfied
i won't be satisfied
i can't be satisfied

because i want to lose control
lose control
lose control
lose control
lose control
cause when i do i lose my soul

well my flight leaves on tuesday this is really exciting Never been outside the stats If you dont already know my parents are military so move around alot.... If any of you have any tips for me feel free to lay them on me always appreciate good advice. =)

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Weeeeellllll ello poppits,

Been having a wonderful turkey break Im assuming??? Oh my mistake "Fall break" we have to be politcally correct nowadays right? Well anyway after doing my 9 to 5 and coming home dead tired the fam decides they want to go out for dinner... So I go along with it thinking "hey alright its gonna be a quick drive through routine we'll be back in no time WRONG!!!

So we decide to go into the chili's knock off called Ruby Tuesdays or something with stop signs and nostalgic photos and baseball crap on the walls well the guy takes our order nothing on the menu is less then 10 bucks ( yeah this isnt expensive when you're splitting the check but when you're paying for 4 people it PHUCKING ADDS UP!!)

Anyway after having the steaks phucked up drinks a 3 bucks a piece and two little raggamuffins acting up the night comes out to a grand total of $108.00 phucking bucks!!!! GRRRR

You guys ever have to take the family on a night out and end up paying for the lot???

Hey guys well its saturday just got off work and a got a nice big ol fat paycheck $420.50 Heh not that big but hey thats what you get when you work minimum wage... sitting here drinking some dos eques "ambar" preety tasty you know me, I like them spanish beers... well I guess you dont know me but guess you do now?

So how you all been?